erin's job, ghost identity, house 8 leggeds

1. erin says the night before 'remember that you're doing camp tomorrow!' i am filling in for her job at the hands on children museum, but tbe shift is occuring in my room. i start getting nervous about whether or not the kids will come accross anything adult in nature, but when they do, we explain it to them clearly and level headedly. they seem nonplussed about subjects like condoms and sex. it turns out i'm not as bad with kids as i thought, they seem to like all the projects i'm doing.
2. camp is over. i'm running from a recurrent ghost- one that 's been in dreams before. the ghost is so terrifying, anytime you think of anything you might need, he leaves it outside the door and knocks on the door. everything comes with a little note, but i never ever read what it says. one of the notes would tell who exactly this ghost was, i just know it, but it's in code, and i'm too scared to really read it. i'm running around like a mad woman. there's a blueberry bush with blueberries that are huge and fat and almost too ripe to pick but i start picking them. i'm with josh and we keep fading from being my mom and dad to being him and i while we're in my grandma's apartment. right before i wake up i realize that the ghost just needs to be thanked for all the hard work its done in its life to serve others so that it can go on. i wake up breathing heavy despite how benevelent the conclusion is!
3. my landlord comes over and i walk him through all the stuff he still hasn't done. kindly. we go underneath the house- but really it's not underneath it's like between the walls. it's cool to be back there. we finally are kind of on the same page about things. he leaves, a bunch of girls ages 11-20 are hanging out with me in this weird spot. like a theatre stage backlit, the girls all at different levels sitting crosslegged or laying on their stomachs like a scene from an after school tv program. from where i'm sitting i can see all the spiders that live here- THERE ARE A LOT! like probably 8 or 9 3 inch spiders dipping in and out of crater like holes in the ceiling. one starts to crawl on my leg and i wince while i'm giving my lecture but one of the younger girls just notifies me and i let it keep going. it was really fast and walks away. on my palm there is a jelly fish eating an octopus. i watch their bodies change from phsychedelic pattern to phsychedelic pattern.

sigh

1. i invite him to a movie. the theatre has odd funhouse workings, with a lot of wierd small plywood enclosed spaces. i encourage him to get into one and kind of try to kiss him. he's miffed. we go back into the theatre and are watching previews for the next movie (is it a double feature?) it's about crazy rave punks in the 80's. the credits roll. i'm trying to get change back into my pocket without making any noise.

river anger, lake box, church music

august 12 07
1. swimming by a river with my dad and two of my friends. a construction crew shows up to blockade one part of the river. it's a very fertile part of the river, there are fish and crawdads everywhere. a construction crew shows up and they don't even warn us, they just start throwing these huge machines into the water. me and my dad are like 'oh shit we better get to the edge, i don't know what these things do, they might even be using dynamite...!' so we get to the edge and then i ask one of the construction workers what they're doing. he says 'well, we gotta make sure no one is trying to use this part of the river as a food source because the fishing company is seeing low revenues this quarter.' i start yelling at him hysterically and pulling my hair out, latching on to him and essentially freaking him the fuck out. 'i need to study this for school though, this is the last place left to study the mating of my species of fish...' liz trails off....
2. it's getting cold but we're still at the lake. we've brought lunch pales for the kids (hot pink) but i've been being ultra boisterous and not cautious and now that everyone's dressed and ready we see the pales out in the middle of the lake past the swimming area rope.
3. i go home and start listening through all of my parents cds. i realize my mom and i have more similar taste in music than i thought. she tells me about her friend in church who is singing on one of the tracks we listen to. her story tells about how they were singing in the choir and my mom's friend someone to join- the friend was somewhat of a hippie er whatever, in grey baggy clothes. (this was the 60's...) and the friend like freaked out in the middle of church, kissed the woman on the lips, with tongue, who brought her, and caused a commotion. the woman turned out to leave the church and my mom hadn't talked to her since.