1. in a crowded house party in palestine. i've been here for days and so has the party. i'm on a balcony greeting people (screening people.) there's a high level of flirtation happening with one of the guys who's been at this party, and maybe someone who i used to date. in either case, it makes me proud when victoria shows the film she's taken. it's a music video where i'm one of the actors and happen to look really nice. it looks like something out of the 1930s and i'm in flowing attire in rose petals. also very close to another woman. i remember shooting the film and remember how rewarding and saucy it is.
2. with some rough kids. they take me out of the party. the guy is walking through all of these alleys trying to find his stash, he's so nonchalant. he dips to grab something from inbetween two peices of cement on the wall and keeps walking. we're walking with another man too. we don't see any guards but i kind of feel like we could get shot or caught at any moment for no reason at all. we get to a big huge pile of rubble and hang out there where he has handed me a little popper type thing to take. he starts shooting up. watching him do it, i hesitate.
3. hanging out with jon pon?
dec. 3 07
Monday, December 03, 2007
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
erin's job, ghost identity, house 8 leggeds
1. erin says the night before 'remember that you're doing camp tomorrow!' i am filling in for her job at the hands on children museum, but tbe shift is occuring in my room. i start getting nervous about whether or not the kids will come accross anything adult in nature, but when they do, we explain it to them clearly and level headedly. they seem nonplussed about subjects like condoms and sex. it turns out i'm not as bad with kids as i thought, they seem to like all the projects i'm doing.
2. camp is over. i'm running from a recurrent ghost- one that 's been in dreams before. the ghost is so terrifying, anytime you think of anything you might need, he leaves it outside the door and knocks on the door. everything comes with a little note, but i never ever read what it says. one of the notes would tell who exactly this ghost was, i just know it, but it's in code, and i'm too scared to really read it. i'm running around like a mad woman. there's a blueberry bush with blueberries that are huge and fat and almost too ripe to pick but i start picking them. i'm with josh and we keep fading from being my mom and dad to being him and i while we're in my grandma's apartment. right before i wake up i realize that the ghost just needs to be thanked for all the hard work its done in its life to serve others so that it can go on. i wake up breathing heavy despite how benevelent the conclusion is!
3. my landlord comes over and i walk him through all the stuff he still hasn't done. kindly. we go underneath the house- but really it's not underneath it's like between the walls. it's cool to be back there. we finally are kind of on the same page about things. he leaves, a bunch of girls ages 11-20 are hanging out with me in this weird spot. like a theatre stage backlit, the girls all at different levels sitting crosslegged or laying on their stomachs like a scene from an after school tv program. from where i'm sitting i can see all the spiders that live here- THERE ARE A LOT! like probably 8 or 9 3 inch spiders dipping in and out of crater like holes in the ceiling. one starts to crawl on my leg and i wince while i'm giving my lecture but one of the younger girls just notifies me and i let it keep going. it was really fast and walks away. on my palm there is a jelly fish eating an octopus. i watch their bodies change from phsychedelic pattern to phsychedelic pattern.
2. camp is over. i'm running from a recurrent ghost- one that 's been in dreams before. the ghost is so terrifying, anytime you think of anything you might need, he leaves it outside the door and knocks on the door. everything comes with a little note, but i never ever read what it says. one of the notes would tell who exactly this ghost was, i just know it, but it's in code, and i'm too scared to really read it. i'm running around like a mad woman. there's a blueberry bush with blueberries that are huge and fat and almost too ripe to pick but i start picking them. i'm with josh and we keep fading from being my mom and dad to being him and i while we're in my grandma's apartment. right before i wake up i realize that the ghost just needs to be thanked for all the hard work its done in its life to serve others so that it can go on. i wake up breathing heavy despite how benevelent the conclusion is!
3. my landlord comes over and i walk him through all the stuff he still hasn't done. kindly. we go underneath the house- but really it's not underneath it's like between the walls. it's cool to be back there. we finally are kind of on the same page about things. he leaves, a bunch of girls ages 11-20 are hanging out with me in this weird spot. like a theatre stage backlit, the girls all at different levels sitting crosslegged or laying on their stomachs like a scene from an after school tv program. from where i'm sitting i can see all the spiders that live here- THERE ARE A LOT! like probably 8 or 9 3 inch spiders dipping in and out of crater like holes in the ceiling. one starts to crawl on my leg and i wince while i'm giving my lecture but one of the younger girls just notifies me and i let it keep going. it was really fast and walks away. on my palm there is a jelly fish eating an octopus. i watch their bodies change from phsychedelic pattern to phsychedelic pattern.
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
sigh
1. i invite him to a movie. the theatre has odd funhouse workings, with a lot of wierd small plywood enclosed spaces. i encourage him to get into one and kind of try to kiss him. he's miffed. we go back into the theatre and are watching previews for the next movie (is it a double feature?) it's about crazy rave punks in the 80's. the credits roll. i'm trying to get change back into my pocket without making any noise.
Sunday, August 12, 2007
river anger, lake box, church music
august 12 07
1. swimming by a river with my dad and two of my friends. a construction crew shows up to blockade one part of the river. it's a very fertile part of the river, there are fish and crawdads everywhere. a construction crew shows up and they don't even warn us, they just start throwing these huge machines into the water. me and my dad are like 'oh shit we better get to the edge, i don't know what these things do, they might even be using dynamite...!' so we get to the edge and then i ask one of the construction workers what they're doing. he says 'well, we gotta make sure no one is trying to use this part of the river as a food source because the fishing company is seeing low revenues this quarter.' i start yelling at him hysterically and pulling my hair out, latching on to him and essentially freaking him the fuck out. 'i need to study this for school though, this is the last place left to study the mating of my species of fish...' liz trails off....
2. it's getting cold but we're still at the lake. we've brought lunch pales for the kids (hot pink) but i've been being ultra boisterous and not cautious and now that everyone's dressed and ready we see the pales out in the middle of the lake past the swimming area rope.
3. i go home and start listening through all of my parents cds. i realize my mom and i have more similar taste in music than i thought. she tells me about her friend in church who is singing on one of the tracks we listen to. her story tells about how they were singing in the choir and my mom's friend someone to join- the friend was somewhat of a hippie er whatever, in grey baggy clothes. (this was the 60's...) and the friend like freaked out in the middle of church, kissed the woman on the lips, with tongue, who brought her, and caused a commotion. the woman turned out to leave the church and my mom hadn't talked to her since.
1. swimming by a river with my dad and two of my friends. a construction crew shows up to blockade one part of the river. it's a very fertile part of the river, there are fish and crawdads everywhere. a construction crew shows up and they don't even warn us, they just start throwing these huge machines into the water. me and my dad are like 'oh shit we better get to the edge, i don't know what these things do, they might even be using dynamite...!' so we get to the edge and then i ask one of the construction workers what they're doing. he says 'well, we gotta make sure no one is trying to use this part of the river as a food source because the fishing company is seeing low revenues this quarter.' i start yelling at him hysterically and pulling my hair out, latching on to him and essentially freaking him the fuck out. 'i need to study this for school though, this is the last place left to study the mating of my species of fish...' liz trails off....
2. it's getting cold but we're still at the lake. we've brought lunch pales for the kids (hot pink) but i've been being ultra boisterous and not cautious and now that everyone's dressed and ready we see the pales out in the middle of the lake past the swimming area rope.
3. i go home and start listening through all of my parents cds. i realize my mom and i have more similar taste in music than i thought. she tells me about her friend in church who is singing on one of the tracks we listen to. her story tells about how they were singing in the choir and my mom's friend someone to join- the friend was somewhat of a hippie er whatever, in grey baggy clothes. (this was the 60's...) and the friend like freaked out in the middle of church, kissed the woman on the lips, with tongue, who brought her, and caused a commotion. the woman turned out to leave the church and my mom hadn't talked to her since.
Friday, July 20, 2007
queen, sugar, visiting
1. Staying over at the Queen's mansion. She is having an estate sale where jewelry and other expensive items are laid out on lighted glass shelving with no covers over them. some riff-raff come in and openly steal some items. me and my big burly friend run after them for a couple blocks and the townspeople and i reduce them to laying on the ground except for the one with the jewels. he gets away.1b. everyone is finally gone and i fill up the Queen's sugar bowl and put it back on her table as she sleeps.2. We go to see my friend finally. She can't leave her house. Her husband and she have separate beds in the same room.
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
kissing, joseph talk
7-5-07
1a. i move into a house with five women who are rumoured to be generous with physical affection. i've only seen one around town. one day when i'm at home, the one i recognize from town attempts to give me a kiss. but i'm totally taken off guard, i was reading a newspaper or carrying a lot of things at the time. she's very sassy and somehow i have the impression that it was rude of me to not kiss her. (but i do want to kiss her.) the next day i'm in the kitchen again and eating dinner, something like meatloaf, something with meat, savory. she tries to kiss me with my mouth full and i still feel apologetic about it. she just walks away. finally i try to kiss her as we are standing in a doorway, but she dodges it. she acts even MORE sassy and is like 'you snooze you lose.'
1b. so i'm kind of distraught about this, confused and exasperated. i go over to see joseph and tell him about this series of events. he's very empathetic even though all he says is 'oh ariel. ' like he does.
2. we sit on a very high up bed, like a bunk bed or loft in a dim room and we have long talks about whether or not we can kiss.
1a. i move into a house with five women who are rumoured to be generous with physical affection. i've only seen one around town. one day when i'm at home, the one i recognize from town attempts to give me a kiss. but i'm totally taken off guard, i was reading a newspaper or carrying a lot of things at the time. she's very sassy and somehow i have the impression that it was rude of me to not kiss her. (but i do want to kiss her.) the next day i'm in the kitchen again and eating dinner, something like meatloaf, something with meat, savory. she tries to kiss me with my mouth full and i still feel apologetic about it. she just walks away. finally i try to kiss her as we are standing in a doorway, but she dodges it. she acts even MORE sassy and is like 'you snooze you lose.'
1b. so i'm kind of distraught about this, confused and exasperated. i go over to see joseph and tell him about this series of events. he's very empathetic even though all he says is 'oh ariel. ' like he does.
2. we sit on a very high up bed, like a bunk bed or loft in a dim room and we have long talks about whether or not we can kiss.
tropical fish
this dream was dreamt a long time ago but it's so funny ... probably dreamt it in march of 2006.
I'm visiting Hawaii and come accross a For Rent sign on a shady street. I decide to move in. I meet with the girl who's putting the room up for rent. we walk up the stair and stand talking in a blue room with blue floral wallpaper and two twin beds with blue bedspreads. one wall looks like it's made of blue floral curtains. She tells me "well, the owner of this house was an old woman and she has recently passed away. nothing's quite figured out as far as finances, but no one really knew of her to be honest, so there's not really any paperwork to do. the rent is free." we walk towards the curtains and open one up and there's windows leading into another room. "This is the room you'd have." it has 5 sides, shaped kind of like a bay window, with pink walls and gauzy curtains. there are windows looking out all around. it didn't - but should have- smelled like a nail salon. there are also mirrors where there aren't windows and vanity-desks set up all around. there's one double sized bed with orange and pink floral designs. she says 'ok, well, i'm going to let you explore this room. just let me know if you need anything or have any questions.' i kind of walk around, the carpet is salmon colored. it's kind of a wierd room but i'm into it. i kind of stand near the northwest corner of the room, looking at a vanity drawer and then i feel something slip out of me. then i feel more things slip out of me. i look down and small fish, like 2 inches by 1 inch tropical fish are coming out from between my legs. there are a lot of them, they keep coming, steadily. i think 'i have to call the hospital! i have to go to the emergency room!' but then i think 'they aren't going to know what the hell to do with a girl who's got tropical fish coming out of her!' then i think 'why aren't they swimming? or dying? or wiggling or something?' i realize that they're sleeping.
I'm visiting Hawaii and come accross a For Rent sign on a shady street. I decide to move in. I meet with the girl who's putting the room up for rent. we walk up the stair and stand talking in a blue room with blue floral wallpaper and two twin beds with blue bedspreads. one wall looks like it's made of blue floral curtains. She tells me "well, the owner of this house was an old woman and she has recently passed away. nothing's quite figured out as far as finances, but no one really knew of her to be honest, so there's not really any paperwork to do. the rent is free." we walk towards the curtains and open one up and there's windows leading into another room. "This is the room you'd have." it has 5 sides, shaped kind of like a bay window, with pink walls and gauzy curtains. there are windows looking out all around. it didn't - but should have- smelled like a nail salon. there are also mirrors where there aren't windows and vanity-desks set up all around. there's one double sized bed with orange and pink floral designs. she says 'ok, well, i'm going to let you explore this room. just let me know if you need anything or have any questions.' i kind of walk around, the carpet is salmon colored. it's kind of a wierd room but i'm into it. i kind of stand near the northwest corner of the room, looking at a vanity drawer and then i feel something slip out of me. then i feel more things slip out of me. i look down and small fish, like 2 inches by 1 inch tropical fish are coming out from between my legs. there are a lot of them, they keep coming, steadily. i think 'i have to call the hospital! i have to go to the emergency room!' but then i think 'they aren't going to know what the hell to do with a girl who's got tropical fish coming out of her!' then i think 'why aren't they swimming? or dying? or wiggling or something?' i realize that they're sleeping.
froth, shakespeare does these love things, grandma
7-9-07
1. taking my temperature in the morning like i normally do for fertility charting. it's pretty high, not out of the ordinary though. i go into the bathroom and my womb is excreting froth. (!) like, a lot of froth.
2. i'm in a social situation, maybe in a cabin, it's far away from my house. we're all (probably 10 or 12 of us) mingling, i hit on my crush in a tentative kind of way...at the end of the night he goes home with jamie, i find out that they have been having a torrid love affair for the past few days. it seems to make sense. i'm caught between feeling proud of and happy for jamie and jealous for my crush. i decide to get over it and do.
3. riding in my roommates' boyfriends car on the way home. it's a white sportscar, we're taking back the leftovers, glass pans with tinfoil on top in cardboard boxes. i'm telling him about a dream i had where he and i were dating. he's into it and kind of starts leaning in even closer to me as we talk. i'm excited by the power of the situation but i'm not interested in him at all.
4. my grandma tells me to straighten my sweater.
1. taking my temperature in the morning like i normally do for fertility charting. it's pretty high, not out of the ordinary though. i go into the bathroom and my womb is excreting froth. (!) like, a lot of froth.
2. i'm in a social situation, maybe in a cabin, it's far away from my house. we're all (probably 10 or 12 of us) mingling, i hit on my crush in a tentative kind of way...at the end of the night he goes home with jamie, i find out that they have been having a torrid love affair for the past few days. it seems to make sense. i'm caught between feeling proud of and happy for jamie and jealous for my crush. i decide to get over it and do.
3. riding in my roommates' boyfriends car on the way home. it's a white sportscar, we're taking back the leftovers, glass pans with tinfoil on top in cardboard boxes. i'm telling him about a dream i had where he and i were dating. he's into it and kind of starts leaning in even closer to me as we talk. i'm excited by the power of the situation but i'm not interested in him at all.
4. my grandma tells me to straighten my sweater.
Monday, November 06, 2006
hair cut, tidal wave, sex again, poems
11-5
1. i am cuttng my own hair in the bathroom while a girl watches me do it. she's either very quiet and enthralled or very anxious about it. i feel like i've finally discovered 'the answer'
2. a hurricane in my front lawn. a tidal wave comes up from behind my house
1. i am cuttng my own hair in the bathroom while a girl watches me do it. she's either very quiet and enthralled or very anxious about it. i feel like i've finally discovered 'the answer'
2. a hurricane in my front lawn. a tidal wave comes up from behind my house
8-30
1. a very sexy one in which i am captured and made love to by 2 women and one man...:)
2. jamy is asking me if i've ever listened to Beth Orton and asking later about some poetry i've 'recently' written. 'i only remember writing those poems on the driveway of my parents house' i say, she says 'no they're on my computer, one is called '666' and has a musical introduction. she says the poem makes no sense until i recite it aloud.
Monday, August 21, 2006
drunk driving, bear attack, breast pump
8-19
1. at a huge festival akin to burning man but more cirkusy. about to leave, in the passenger seat of our car. cole is driving and is very drunk but i let him drive anyway. we're in the desert, it doesn't seem like anybody's around, it's daylight, we'll be fine. but a cop goes to pull us over. cole refuses to and continues going 80 miles an hour, dodging cactii and tumbleweed. josh is giggling in the back seat. i am an odd mixture of anxious and resigned. eventually we lose the cop. i'm pregnant and my due date is progressing very fast. (i wonder in this dream whose baby it is....???!)
2. someone casts me in a play. after the news, i go over to a hip house in oly where all of the rest of the cast lives. i'm waiting outside with isaac my cat and my baby. a panda bear is walking down the road and picks up isaac to attack him, but isaac jumps really high to avoid it. -at this point in the dream i have an aerial view- so i'm the sky and i see isaac the cat high above a vicious panda bear- . i attack the bear while isaac's still in the air. the bear passes out, but i know it won't last for long. i go in side and lock the sliding glass door. i pick up the phone (pink) to call 911, one of the housemates is on it, but i explain to them what happened. they let me use it. the operator sounds much too relaxed. i call josh and he says 'oh honey you did such a good job! good job!'
3. i bought a breast pump at grocery outlet and was trying to use it in the store- it was wierd, you inserted tiny knobs that fit into the nipple where milk usually seeps- i expected it to be painful but it wasn't, just wierd.
1. at a huge festival akin to burning man but more cirkusy. about to leave, in the passenger seat of our car. cole is driving and is very drunk but i let him drive anyway. we're in the desert, it doesn't seem like anybody's around, it's daylight, we'll be fine. but a cop goes to pull us over. cole refuses to and continues going 80 miles an hour, dodging cactii and tumbleweed. josh is giggling in the back seat. i am an odd mixture of anxious and resigned. eventually we lose the cop. i'm pregnant and my due date is progressing very fast. (i wonder in this dream whose baby it is....???!)
2. someone casts me in a play. after the news, i go over to a hip house in oly where all of the rest of the cast lives. i'm waiting outside with isaac my cat and my baby. a panda bear is walking down the road and picks up isaac to attack him, but isaac jumps really high to avoid it. -at this point in the dream i have an aerial view- so i'm the sky and i see isaac the cat high above a vicious panda bear- . i attack the bear while isaac's still in the air. the bear passes out, but i know it won't last for long. i go in side and lock the sliding glass door. i pick up the phone (pink) to call 911, one of the housemates is on it, but i explain to them what happened. they let me use it. the operator sounds much too relaxed. i call josh and he says 'oh honey you did such a good job! good job!'
3. i bought a breast pump at grocery outlet and was trying to use it in the store- it was wierd, you inserted tiny knobs that fit into the nipple where milk usually seeps- i expected it to be painful but it wasn't, just wierd.
how soldiers feel
8-16
1. i'm a soldier in a war. (seems like i'm in cambodia) i'm standing on a steep, muddy embankment next to a river. it's hot, muggy, and grey outside. there's just mud everywhere. it's just him and i standing by this slow, massive river. im starting to be hysterical, we're standing about 6 feet apart but i'm yelling at the top of my lungs to speak. a caravan of us soldiers drives by where the river used to be. i'm shouting 'WHAT"S THE POINT!' 'THere's nothing we can do to stop it! pause ' Is war the only fucking way?' i am feeling VERY exasperated, furious, and sure that nothing i do will matter in one bit, that existance...doesn't exist. i lift my gun and shoot at a car in the caravan. i just ding the edge. jessica ritland steps out of the car unharmed. no one in the caravan notices us even though we're in plain sight. he says something like 'yeah this is no fun' later, on our way hime, he says with a lot of enthusiasm that he wants to sail on a sailboat, get a nice house. i can't get the image of the embankment and the fury i felt out of my head. i walk into josh's aunt connie's spilt level house and straight into her arms. she says 'hello, sister' i'm near weeping adn say 'i'm so sorry we have to go through this' and she says 'we're all christians your speaking to' she says 'you just wait till you smell the rosemary chicken i'm cooking, you'll forget all about it'
1. i'm a soldier in a war. (seems like i'm in cambodia) i'm standing on a steep, muddy embankment next to a river. it's hot, muggy, and grey outside. there's just mud everywhere. it's just him and i standing by this slow, massive river. im starting to be hysterical, we're standing about 6 feet apart but i'm yelling at the top of my lungs to speak. a caravan of us soldiers drives by where the river used to be. i'm shouting 'WHAT"S THE POINT!' 'THere's nothing we can do to stop it! pause ' Is war the only fucking way?' i am feeling VERY exasperated, furious, and sure that nothing i do will matter in one bit, that existance...doesn't exist. i lift my gun and shoot at a car in the caravan. i just ding the edge. jessica ritland steps out of the car unharmed. no one in the caravan notices us even though we're in plain sight. he says something like 'yeah this is no fun' later, on our way hime, he says with a lot of enthusiasm that he wants to sail on a sailboat, get a nice house. i can't get the image of the embankment and the fury i felt out of my head. i walk into josh's aunt connie's spilt level house and straight into her arms. she says 'hello, sister' i'm near weeping adn say 'i'm so sorry we have to go through this' and she says 'we're all christians your speaking to' she says 'you just wait till you smell the rosemary chicken i'm cooking, you'll forget all about it'
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
recent (not in the same night though) acid, WEDDINGS, holocaust, flowers
dream from a week ago: it's about 11:30 at night and i know i have to work tomorrow at about 10 but i decide to eat some acid anyway. i end up feeling really high but not seeing much until about an hour into it, then decide to go to bed and can fall asleep right away, and have wierd dreams (dreams within a dream)
lastnight:
1. i'm travelling north to see austin hund marry a girl on a fire escape. it was a wedding by invitation only, the sky is blank white, austin is giggling and holding a girl up in his arms (over the threshold style) i'm feeling good about the whole thing.
2. i come into a situation where many people i know are congregating. i've recently escaped and start telling them that it's not a lie, the holocaust is happening again in a small town outside of washington dc. i tell them i've escaped from there and remember seeing 3 corpses laying in the corner of a room where we were all kept.
3. wildflowers
lastnight:
1. i'm travelling north to see austin hund marry a girl on a fire escape. it was a wedding by invitation only, the sky is blank white, austin is giggling and holding a girl up in his arms (over the threshold style) i'm feeling good about the whole thing.
2. i come into a situation where many people i know are congregating. i've recently escaped and start telling them that it's not a lie, the holocaust is happening again in a small town outside of washington dc. i tell them i've escaped from there and remember seeing 3 corpses laying in the corner of a room where we were all kept.
3. wildflowers
Monday, June 12, 2006
josh spy, leon
1. josh is being spied on by a very large agency having to do indirectly with the government. the dream features a few days in the situation. we seem to be in northern europe... perhaps sweden. josh and i are apart while i'm looking at a bookcase in a large history library for the country, or it could have been a high class retail store. a blonde gentleman in a suit is attempting to seduce me, and i think about it, and he starts to kiss me, but i stop kissing him. he leaves without a big todo but i know he is furious. i meet up with josh near the docks. we're still a team. something tips him off that he's being spied on right then and there. my gut feeling is that the man in the suit is the spy.josh opens his wallet to check some high tech spy device and finds my lipgloss in it, the kind i was wearing in the history library. the spy must have planted it there! i realize it's an attempt to distract me and resolve not to let it. josh says 'we have to jump on to the boat now!' we start running and jump the 4 or 5 feet to the boat as the dock becomes more distant.
2. a group of us is coming back from an island in north washington. leon and i get on the ferry. we're trying to be comfortable in uncomfortable chairs. he's telling me about how sex with (one of his exes) was "stupid" but with sean it was better. he went into great detail. i was pretty neutral on it.
(5-7-06)
2. a group of us is coming back from an island in north washington. leon and i get on the ferry. we're trying to be comfortable in uncomfortable chairs. he's telling me about how sex with (one of his exes) was "stupid" but with sean it was better. he went into great detail. i was pretty neutral on it.
(5-7-06)
orgy judge, ex girlfriend house, restaurant, jamy
1. judging on a panel/observing their performance project, which is an orgy.
2. i get there, the floor is wet and covered with little pieces of white and pink paper the size of handbills. we're cleaning up a cluster of bedrooms .the bedrooms were all brought to this place. i'm with all men. but the only one i recognize is Blaine. we're looking through the 'ex girlfriends' rooms, all the bedrooms have belonged to girls who murdered their boyfriend or ex boyfriend. none of the cases seem related except that all their journals and cd books have a lot of cds and logos from a popular movie of the time called 'monster'.the designe is gold leaf shiny behind really fancy lettering. the property seemed like it should be under fbi investigation or something, but instead i was just watching as this guerilla team of guys looked through the journals and memorabilia of these murderers for clues to why they did it and how to prevent it in the future.
3. i go into a really expensive restaurant with someone i barely know. the waitress pours us wine and it's good. it's burgundy. (in waking life i don't think i've ever had burgundy i've liked) i wasn't carded, then i realize they would never card at this establishment because alcohol sales are too lucrative. i had ordered fish with a vegetable but instead there's pork chops cut like vegetables on my plate. the girl i sat with has french fries on top of a bed of chopped spinach. i begin to relax about the price.
4. i'm calling jamy to tell her that mark needs to help me move because it's her fault we can't live in our house anymore and i really don't want to rent a u-haul.
(4-19-06)
2. i get there, the floor is wet and covered with little pieces of white and pink paper the size of handbills. we're cleaning up a cluster of bedrooms .the bedrooms were all brought to this place. i'm with all men. but the only one i recognize is Blaine. we're looking through the 'ex girlfriends' rooms, all the bedrooms have belonged to girls who murdered their boyfriend or ex boyfriend. none of the cases seem related except that all their journals and cd books have a lot of cds and logos from a popular movie of the time called 'monster'.the designe is gold leaf shiny behind really fancy lettering. the property seemed like it should be under fbi investigation or something, but instead i was just watching as this guerilla team of guys looked through the journals and memorabilia of these murderers for clues to why they did it and how to prevent it in the future.
3. i go into a really expensive restaurant with someone i barely know. the waitress pours us wine and it's good. it's burgundy. (in waking life i don't think i've ever had burgundy i've liked) i wasn't carded, then i realize they would never card at this establishment because alcohol sales are too lucrative. i had ordered fish with a vegetable but instead there's pork chops cut like vegetables on my plate. the girl i sat with has french fries on top of a bed of chopped spinach. i begin to relax about the price.
4. i'm calling jamy to tell her that mark needs to help me move because it's her fault we can't live in our house anymore and i really don't want to rent a u-haul.
(4-19-06)
two weddings, and sausage links
1. i'm invited to danielle elliot's wedding. it's in the tropics, i have to take an airplane. i arrive in an airconditioned airport with a huge hat store.
2. apartment hunting with josh and justin steffener. we're looking at a place that someone still lives in. it has a table full of junk and a pull out grill top. josh asks if i want a sausage patty or link from the kitchen.
3. jamy's wedding. my bridesmaid dress is beautiful. i tell her i'm so glad she's marrying ben. (even though in waking life they are split up...) my grandma says i look naked without a hat. (4-17-06)
2. apartment hunting with josh and justin steffener. we're looking at a place that someone still lives in. it has a table full of junk and a pull out grill top. josh asks if i want a sausage patty or link from the kitchen.
3. jamy's wedding. my bridesmaid dress is beautiful. i tell her i'm so glad she's marrying ben. (even though in waking life they are split up...) my grandma says i look naked without a hat. (4-17-06)
dad dance, missy elliot, arrested
1. in my parent's house. they're telling me all the things they're going to give me on account of their recent move, including a huge brown leather couch with two drawers in the bottom. in the kitchen, my dad and a daughter of his from a previous marriage are ermembering a dance and song that his exwife taught him. he's jumping up and down and singing in chinese with his daughter. later, he adn i go for a walk and are singing a song of our own that i haven't heard since i was little. it sounds gaelic. (i don't know the song, waking)
2. in the recording studio with missy misdemenor elliot
3. getting arrested for having an open container and minor in possesion. telling off the judge and officers saying 'well you'll feel a lot less uptight if you drink some' and to the judge 'i'm a third degree musician' (4-14-06)
2. in the recording studio with missy misdemenor elliot
3. getting arrested for having an open container and minor in possesion. telling off the judge and officers saying 'well you'll feel a lot less uptight if you drink some' and to the judge 'i'm a third degree musician' (4-14-06)
funeral
1. dawna and i are at a funeral. we're reading from a book that is significant to our heritage but is not the bible. she's singing songs that are only in print with the lyrics, not the notation. i'm wish that i was taught these songs that are in the book. they're so beautiful.
flood, interactive book
1. going to church with my dad. on the way, there's a flood. we're driving alongside the space needle kind of like we're on the tracks of the train that goes along there. a woman in an orange coat stops and talks to us.
2. cole gives me an interactive book
(3-16_06)
2. cole gives me an interactive book
(3-16_06)
josh baby, blue rooms, youth group
1. i'm going back in time to fix something that happened to josh. i accidentally go way too far, like to when josh is on ly one or two years old. he and his mom are hanging out in a very large castle. it seems like they're visiting relatives. she's just given him a bath so i swing in and pick him up while she's left the room. we're in a hallway, i'm holding him and whispering things into his hear. we're in front of a mirror and everything seems light.
2.i'm ion a group trip or field trip of some sort. in blue rooms, looking for a toilet. they all seem like rehearsal rooms, and there's a lot of toilets, but the field trip group follows me everywhere i go. i follow along one wall until i reach even more smaller blue rooms that seem older, like they were the original building. there's picture frames everywhere.
3.being at a youth group, realizing that they were about to start worship and getting ready to leave. everyone wearing grocery outlet shirts. they start and i feel ok afterall. (3-13-06)
2.i'm ion a group trip or field trip of some sort. in blue rooms, looking for a toilet. they all seem like rehearsal rooms, and there's a lot of toilets, but the field trip group follows me everywhere i go. i follow along one wall until i reach even more smaller blue rooms that seem older, like they were the original building. there's picture frames everywhere.
3.being at a youth group, realizing that they were about to start worship and getting ready to leave. everyone wearing grocery outlet shirts. they start and i feel ok afterall. (3-13-06)
funerals and oral sex
1. I'm riding in a car with strangers and josh. it's a sunny day, in the afternoon. there girl next to me in the back seat starts kissing the girl in the front seat, and things escalate until the whole car is performing oral sex.
2. i'm going to a funeral with my cousin, dawna. it's the same day as the car event, sunshine, afternoon. most people at the funeral are dressed in red silk. dawna and jamy are arguing about religion.
2. i'm going to a funeral with my cousin, dawna. it's the same day as the car event, sunshine, afternoon. most people at the funeral are dressed in red silk. dawna and jamy are arguing about religion.
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